Hello, friends! It has been awhile since I have written, but I’m back! A few blog posts ago I wrote about how busy my life was and how I enjoyed it. Well, long story short I stopped enjoying it.
Let me give you a quick refresher of what my life looked like in 2017: I was going to school three days a week, working four days a week, leading youth on Wednesday’s, and babysitting two nights a week. When January came I decided that I needed to slow down. So I stepped back from babysitting twice a week, which was hard because it is something I had done with my best friend since we were juniors in high school. But it was time for me to close that chapter of my life. About a month ago my aunt asked me if I would like to come on staff at church part time and help with some of the children’s ministry tasks. I was apprehensive about adding 8 more hours of work to my week when I was already working 32 hours, but I felt like God was telling me to accept the position. So I did! And I absolutely love it. Lastly, two weeks ago I put my two week notice in at my job that I have had for almost two years (that’s a long time for a youngin like me). Thursday of this week is my last day. I won’t go into detail as to why I chose to leave, but it was a very hard decision for me. This job consumed most of my life and for me to choose to leave was extremely difficult. I prayed for a sign as to what I should do and God showed me it was time for me to go. So friends as you can see I’ve made some major changes. As of next week my weekly routine will be going to school two days a week (with two online classes on top of that), leading the 9th&10th grade girls at youth group on Wednesday’s, and working alongside my aunt in the children’s ministry at church. I have been actively looking for a job, but I feel like I need to take a small break and allow myself to breathe. I am so excited for this new season of life.
Change is always something I have struggled with. And when it comes to me making the change I am really hard on myself. I hate disappointing people so when I decide to take a step back from something, I contemplate it for weeks before I am sure it’s the right thing to do. When change comes out of nowhere it definitely freaks me out. I am a planner. Down to almost every minute of every day. The funny thing is I don’t like to make plans set in stone because then I have anxiety about the plan changing. So although I’m a major planner, I’m also a non-planner. It’s also super hard for me to be laid back when it comes to plans. If you ask my best friend she will definitely agree. Like I said, I plan every minute of every day.
One verse that I try to keep up front in my mind is Philippians 4:6 which says, “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.” When change comes our way it’s important to remember that there is no need to be anxious because God’s got us. It’s hard to live in the unknown, but nothing is unknown to God. This post is shorter than usual, but I wanted to give you a quick recap on what is happening in my life. I am going to spend my new free time (what is free time??) blogging much more! So have a beautiful night, friends!